It is a rare day that I have a nervous spirit. Today, is such a day. Do I know where the anxiety stems from? Mostly. Am I going to accept it – no. I am praying, both under my breath and out loud. I am calling out lies the enemy is trying to push me into believing; doing things that scare him, and walking ahead.
If you’ve ever had a day where all you desire is to be productive, but instead you are aware of every tiny imperfection you have; of everything that’s not going well in your life; of the aches in your heart…The bugs you discovered crawling in the dry brown rice you were about to cook…So much so that you cannot even distract yourself from it, no matter what you do: write, cook, stare out the window. Sitting still…waiting for God to move in one direction or another: hoping he’ll either chase the nerves away or provide revelation.
I decided to share, mostly out of necessity. I knew if I worked it out this way, 1) I would focus on the words and not the nerves and 2) that at least someone else may benefit; which is the point of our suffering anyway. I don’t mind being the most vulnerable girl on the block…someone has too, right? I also I have a pent-up story I need to work through and I cannot do so, while in this state. Some people work well like that, I do not. I rather like my serenity, thank you! So I need to pray for a clear mind and spirit, which I have yet to do… There…tah-done! 🙂
Honestly, being in this state wears me out, physically and emotionally; I feel as though I need a nap. Ha!
Therefore, I pray out over myself, what I consider some of the most valuable verses of scripture; offering it to you, if you are in need:
1 Peter 5:7-10:
Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.