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Why I Share the Intimate Parts

By | August 16, 2017 | Comments
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One thing that always concerns me when I share the stories of my walk with Jesus, is if people think I am patting my own back. Boasting, if you will…

I recall, years back, when the Lord spoke to me about this blog. Initially, this was a space where I shared stories, information and tips about writing, however, almost a year to date into hosting this blog, I heard Him clearly state, “I want you to turn this into a space dedicated to me…into a place where you share your witness, for me.” I was quite taken aback but did not hesitate. “okay, Lord…if that is your desire, I shall obey but You’ll have to provide the words…He certainly came through!

I dug into the archives and found the first mention of the new focus:

“Where God is taking us via this venue…

By | March 3, 2013 | Comments

I am being led to #blog more on my relationship and revelations in Christ and how my #writing relates to my walk. This will be happening slowly #blogging is not my top priority but more and more, I am being shown that it is how God will use me. I know this already but believe He is planning on it being a bigger arena than I would ever personally desire it to be.”

Never in a million years would I have suspected the amazing, yet scary ways the Holy Spirit has urged me to share the most intimate parts of life, with the world. I was never that person who shared her true feelings, let alone with strangers. God has used writing this blog to bring about a deep healing within me; His desire is for others to read, relate, then recognize that a living god, namely Jesus, saves and sanctifies. He imparts life into the cracks in our our fallible humanity. Oh how He loves us! Based on the comments and emails I’ve received from readers, God is reaching whom he desires to reach.

However, it isn’t just the healing or work in my life I’ve been blessed to share, especially in the last year or so, rather how God moves and uses this open vessel in the real world. The ministry of agape love the Lord Jesus has used to heal me, he now sends me out to reveal to random people, all over! A woman in my life group through the church I attend told me the night she met me, she saw a person whom God uses to reach people others cannot. I was floored! Yet, I look back over the people the Lord has put before me, and must agree. It blesses my heart so very deeply to be trusted and used by my Lord!

Why do I share the stories…isn’t that vanity and boasting? Not if your heart is right! Here is proof enough to me that God desires his saints to share such instances with the world, so they know He is near:

“O give thanks unto the Lord; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.  Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him: talk ye of all his wondrous works. Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart of them rejoice that seek the LordSeek the Lord, and his strength: seek his face evermore. Remember his marvelous works that he hath done; his wonders, and the judgments of his mouth…” (Psalm 105:1-5)

“For great is the LORD, and greatly to be praised; He also is to be feared above all gods. For all the gods of the peoples are idols, But the LORD made the heavens. Splendor and majesty are before Him, Strength and joy are in His place.” (1 Chronicles 16:25-29)

“And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.” (Colossians 3:17)

“Because of the proof given by this ministry, they will glorify God for your obedience to your confession of the gospel of Christ and for the liberality of your contribution to them and to all.” (2 Corinthians 9:13)

The one thing that leaves many at an impasse is when they witness family destroying their lives. It seems no matter what good God does, certain members of their earthly family can’t seem to receive God’s love and allow him control in order to love them through the tough times. Personally, I’ve prayed and prayed for family members seeing little or no fruit but I can now (happily) say I am. There is one family member in particular whose lifestyle choice has me gravely concerned for her soul. She is young and impressionable, but in the past three years, I’ve witnessed God at work in her life.

She has come to me many times seeking answers to difficult questions about God and her life. I prayed she would turn away from the lifestyle she has chosen, but instead, went deeper in. I didn’t give up, I merely pressed in harder. Then, a week prior to her recent move across the country, she came to me with some really tough issues and I finally felt released to speak the whole truth, gently but honestly. She received the Lord as her savior a few years ago but her life has been marred by lots of upheaval; I know she was at least praying and reading the Bible I gifted her, but not attending church. Now, with this move, she decided it is time to go to church. In fact, she asked me to help her find a church. (I agreed, then researched churches near her new home and sent her a narrow list.)

When she left my home that evening, I fell to my knees in tears, thanking the Lord for one last opportunity to sow into this precious young lady. It was a very humbling moment, one I am still completely flabbergasted over. Most of all, grateful God finally released me to speak absolute truth, whereas in the past, I was led only to relay how her choices were between her and God, while directing her to what His word says. I was also able to start praying effectively for her new spouse, a young lady with a world of hurt inside. I absolutely believe God is going to move mountains in the lives and hearts of both of these girls. Please, pray His will be done!

Two weeks prior to this, God sent me to Kroger of all places…the woman whom He sent me for I will never forget.  I am ever grateful to have understood the quickening of the Holy Spirit that morning, and was obedient! (I’ll share that story soon.)

These are the moments true disciples of Christ live for. Times for which we obey, sacrifice and labor to see take shape. But the humble recognize it is Christ who lives within us, drawing people near enough so we may pour His sweet aroma over them; opening people up to His healing love and grace.

“So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do,

do everything for the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31)

Ministry

Taking God’s Burden for ONE Soul

By | July 23, 2017 | Comments
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The event below transpired over the weekend of July 2, 2017…

I was led to give away the Bible I was gifted in early 2015 over the weekend…

You see…the gorgeous photo below of the misty mountains isn’t a vacation photo. I was sent to Clay County, Kentucky by the Lord, once again, on a mission for Him. Although, I didn’t realize that it was an immediate mission until the day after I arrived, and my spirit was all up in arms – burdened over ONE particular soul. One lost sheep God desired to bestow his love upon.

The property God kept leading me to and giving me a “future” vision ministering to those in need of His love, was not exactly as it seemed in the natural… Why? Because Jesus and the Holy Spirit work in the supernatural. I wasn’t wrong about the context of the vision, I was simply unable to see God’s actual plan and that’s okay! Why? He sees the big picture but I (we) only see what He needs me to see in order to set his plan in motion.

The Lord provided me a purpose for the property, in order to help me build a relationship with the ONE he wants. This purpose was business in both the spiritual and the natural. This business allowed me access to this person and when the time was right, I began to understand my unrest as Jesus’s heart being burdened…then, God revealed all to me.

“For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds…” (2 Corinthians 10:3-4)

I was led to be a witness for Christ, to a man whom God knows is living a life very far from Him. But God loves him still. The way the Holy Spirit led this was beautiful – he utilized my gift of writing and penned this man a note soaked in God’s love for him. I was told to leave it tucked into the band that wound around my most prized possession and gift it to Bill. I was to leave it in my cabin for him to find after I departed.

I prayed, and shed tears, for this man’s soul as I pulled away that Sunday afternoon. Ironically, the prayer request that kept escaping my lips the week prior was simply for people in Clay County, whose acquaintances I made, to only see Christ in me…certainly not expecting this outcome!

Please pray for Bill, that he will not only give Jesus a place in his heart…but also become Light to others lost in similar ways!

Jesus, I praise you…I am so not worthy, yet beyond blessed to be called and sent by You!  I am deeply honored and humbled to serve such an awesome and magnanimous God! A God of vision and of hope; a God of intricate detail. Please Lord send others who will sow the seed planted within Bill’s mind, so You can reap a harvest!

On the top photo, if you cannot read the text it says:

“It’s amazing how much is reflected within a single drop of water…As much love reflects from a drop of Jesus’s blood.” (Stacey Louiso 7/1/17)

As I was studying the angles at which I could capture that ONE drop of water, this statement was imparted in my mind…it was more prophetic than I realized in the moment!

Amen!

Morning Walks

Life, Interrupted

By | July 23, 2017 | 1 Comment
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July 21, 2017

Many times we have intentions for the best laid plans, then life happens. These things, in turn, resemble life, interrupted. For the best laid plans are the plans of The Almighty God, even when he moves you at the very last moment in order to serve Him and others. God’s best laid plans have definitely taken over my life more times than I can recall, over the course of the past year. Even just this morning. As I was preparing to leave home this morning, the Lord imparted on my heart that “someone” was more important than “something.” He then led me to reschedule a job interview as a copywriter/editor…with a global corporation! Then, because God directed my steps, what He wanted prevailed and all worked out to His glory.

“But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.” (1 Corinthians 2:9)

The “someone” was my sister. God brought her to my home last night. She wasn’t supposed to be here but she came anyway, pets in tow. You see today was her last to walk freely upon this earth for at least the next 30 days. I’ve shared her struggles and the poor choices she made over the past year; every bad decision and the consequences of addiction caught up with her. I actually believe God has finally brought her to a place similar to where I once was, a place where nothing I did on my own (apart from Jesus) in life worked. Nothing I did apart from Jesus propelled me forward. I was in a prison of my own accord, staring through the bars…the voices in my head screaming “no more!”

I pray that my sister truly has come to the end of herself. I was blessed with the opportunity to pray over her, including sharing God’s desire to truly build a relationship with her, and His desire to do a great work in her heart during this time of incarceration. I poured out God’s love, grace and mercy over my baby sister before she tearfully (and fearfully) drove off to turn herself in on this hot, humid Friday in July.

“Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life. You stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes; with your right hand you save me.” (Psalm 138:7)

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A heaviness as thick as the humidity outside has hung upon me this past week. I’ve been drenched in the sweat of one whose pounding heart has swelled with anguish over the life and future of a beloved. I was not intentionally suppressing emotion. It took seeking the Lord on why I was experiencing such heaviness to even gain knowledge on its origins. Then the floodgate of my heart opened and deep heartbreak over this life gone terribly awry began to escape the flood wall, infiltrating my thoughts. I refused to go down in the miry clay and refused to participate in whatever depressed state the enemy may be contriving for me!

She came and went…then, peace!

God directed me to stay home from the interview, with one hour to spare, for this family emergency; this so I could complete the work he’d anointed me to handle with my sister.

“The Spirit of the Lord [is] upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised…” (Luke 4:18)

It blessed me immensely to have my sister here overnight. As always, I took the opportunity to watch her sleep. I’ve enjoyed such moments since she was a child (she is 11 years, 363 days my junior) and I usually end up silently giggling at the expressions on her pretty face. It always surprises me how peacefully she sleeps while here; a miracle in itself, because she suffers with crippling insomnia! But the true course was to press into my sister that she is going to be okay, better than okay once she walks through this. To bless the Lord, to give glory to God for once again getting her in a vulnerable enough state to receive the prayers lovingly spoken over her, as she wept in my arms. I wonder if she will ever, ever understand not only the depth of my love for her but also His.

My sister visited my home, I believe, for God to allow her one night of feeling safe and loved. Although, her only intent was to leave in my care her most prized possessions: an ornery kitty and the sweetest pup. Even this detail was God’s will. Why? It means she trusts me again, at least enough to take care of her “babies” as though they are my own. I see them (all) as God’s and I am very careful with His possessions!