As a young girl, I developed several compulsive behaviors, two of which were healed many years ago: chronic obsessive compulsive disorder, which was quite cumbersome, and bulimia. However, the most secret and embarrassing compulsion I experienced was self-pleasuring, which led to escapism and living in a fantasy world that was out of control. This catapulted into the most long-lasting compulsion in attachment to people (especially men), and seeking to be “saved,” but it took me eons to understand what this stemmed from.