That we should be to the praise of his glory, who first trusted in Christ. In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that holy Spirit of promise, Which is the earnest of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of his glory. (Ephesians 1:12-14)
As I sit here before the keyboard, I recognize that today has been Spirit filled. Filled with the Holy Spirit that is… It is so strong upon me I cannot contain the joy, energy and love projecting itself out upon and around me. My thoughts and motions today have been stronger and more focused than they have in a while and I revel in it; I welcome it. I need it.
The presence of the Spirit tells me that God is with me and in a strong way…
I’ll admit to you that I was a bit blocked and this occurred as things that I had to just go with, were happening in my life. I had to walk through it in order to wait for another Believer, to get around the other side of a mountain. It affected me directly and I was so thrilled when they finally made it. I realized, afterward, that I needed to repent for my participation, despite the Lord having directed me to walk with the person, not against them; guaranteeing me He would take care of the rest. Although some may not understand this repentance being necessary, I knew it was.
After all was said and done, knowing I had been released from it as well, I received a message in my spirit that I was to fast.
Is not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke? (Isaiah 58:6)
Fasting is an amazing thing but your heart, mind and spirit truly need to be in alignment with the Lord in order to be dedicated to riding it out to its full effect. I have fasted before but this time it was mandated to me by God, whereas in the past, I chose to fast. Why God directed me to fast, I completely understood without questioning Him. I knew what he needed to accomplish, in and through me, in order for me to remain steadfast in a certain area of my life, and He would use the fast to wipe me clean…to allow a new day to dawn so to speak. You see, God sometimes needs for us to be completely emptied out before He can clean us out. It’s like we are a dirty refrigerator and it cannot be properly cleansed unless all the food and junk is removed first. He sometimes needs an empty cavity.
I’m still in the midst of the fast, today, and will continue until I feel released (this is a fast from food, which is not easy). Yesterday was the first day. I was kept awake most of the previous night, which could have made it more of a challenge, but I believe He did this to lessen my ability to think so He could gain more control of my mind. I dedicated my day to being in Christ while doing some editing work. I found myself extremely focused. I was acutely aware of the moments God was working things out through me. I sat in the Word, in some Bible based reading and in a constant stream of Praise and Worship music, until late last night.
Toward the end of the day, I was feeling the effects of the fast. I was drained physically and emotionally. I had wept and wept, prayed and prayed, sat in silence and sat in thought. I was a truly willing body, as I didn’t want to carry what had been burdening me or could have caused strife, going forward. I knew in order for this to occur I had to absolutely release it to God’s care.
Later in the evening, part of what had concerned me just hours before, was relieved. The confirmation God knew I needed came. A huge weight was lifted from my entire being at that point. I was blessed with a blissful night of sleep that was desperately needed.
When I arose this morning I felt new. I experienced a revived joy and restoration – mind, body and spirit – that only strengthened as the day progressed. (I was also hungry!) The answers to some of the prayers and questions I had, came in waves. My brain was overwhelmed by His presence, as God continued to work in there: renewing and healing my thoughts and emotions to put them back into alignment with Him; providing me a deeper sense of affirmation that what I new to be truth from Him, is, in fact, a truth. No doubt.
His amazing agape love has been crazy tangible today. He has shown himself to be so true, so mighty and such a strong tower…how could I not praise Him. Not sharing this experience with the world…impossible. He moved the words into position and I, as always, submitted into being a usable vessel.
Thank you Jesus for your redeeming grace and mercy; not merely in my life but also in the lives of those I love. You are my LORD. You are my SAVIOR. You are my SAVING grace. I bow humbly at your feet in adoration; washing them carefully with my tears and hair. Thank you for always knowing what we need in advance and guiding us, your willing humble servants, into your arms where we find safety and comfort.
I wrote this earlier today and shared it but am compelled to include it in this post as well:
“Fortified in You”
Today I feel You sitting with me.
You are looking over my shoulder; whispering quietly into my heart the things you need me to know. Showing me a snippet of what is to come.
Yesterday I sat compliant with You, fasting in order to be fortified in and by you; to allow you deep within, where needed most.
As always, you did that amazing thing you do…moving supernaturally through me: using, enlightening, loving and healing me.
Growing, strengthening and sanctifying me to be more attune, in love, in awe of You.
I rest assured that tomorrow your presence will be equally as strong for you are moving me along, reiterating that things shown will come to be and be for your glory.
I sit in a lap of comfort which only You can provide.
“And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him” (Matthew 25:6)