My feet take a walk without me
Honoring her, walking on sacred ground
I do not know where they will lead, I only know where they’ve been
The tears roll endlessly down
Tracking memories, all the days spent…
Please Lord never let me forget those days under the sun
Never allow these memories to fade from mind
Those love filled days by her side
My toes touch the dew
But I realize it’s only a dream, or a nightmare,
Depending on how you view it
Regardless that was my place, my personal slice of heaven
In her smile, the joy in her eyes
The one place I could always count on
What will I do now, without you
You were always there, always my soft place
To whom will I turn now on earth
Prayers and dreams shared in safety
Always receiving kindness, from her heart to mine
My only comfort comes now from knowing you are fine
My heart – cracked – deep inside
And even though I try not, tonight I cry
Finding myself unable to think beyond it all
Knowing I have to allow it, admit it, relieve it
and grieve for her eyes and smile
I love and miss you Grandma…always and forever in my heart. I loved you more than anyone could fathom. You were more to me than I could ever tell you (I tried)…I am so grateful for the woman you were; for the woman you helped me become simply by your beautiful and constant example of love, grace and strength. I truly do not know what I will do without your ever loving presence.
What a beautiful tribute to your grandmother. I could feel the ache behind your words. I’m going to guess that you can still imagine what she would say if you were to have conversations with her. That you can still hear the wisdom she would impart to you. Great post.
Thank you, Anne. Well, yes, as she just passed away last week; therefore, our last conversation just a couple weeks prior is still fresh in my mind. 🙂 She’s in a better place and no longer suffering so that brings me comfort. God bless you!
“In her smile – the joy in her eyes – the one place I could always count on….” that you now grieve the places that once gave you sanctity and peace makes me feel this writing so. I am not sure where you had to dig inside of your soul to get this kind of material; sharing and baring your heart, but these are some epic, amazing words.
I appreciate your comment. I didn’t have to dig. I merely opened up the blank page and out it flowed.